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Oct 7 2008, 12:32 AM

While in denial, I talked about guys occasionally. Once I realized that I was a total lez, I just stopped talking about guys and no one seemed to notice. I wasn't really close to anyone I knew in school, so none of us really talked about boys or crushes that often anyway. I don't think anyone really caught on to it except for this gay guy in one of my classes. I was obsessed with eventually coming out to him so we could be secret gay buddies, but he ended up asking me first in the middle of class, which caught me off guard. I freaked a little and said "No!", and then I was just too embarrassed by my cowardice to set the record straight later on.

Either way, I was very openly gay-friendly, and I started dropping hints to some of my friends around the end of my senior year. So in summation, I guess I acted pretty much normally, if incredibly reserved. I denied it once and still feel like an asshole for that.